Ray could say a million and one things, like how much he missed him, that he wanted him to come home, that he didn't want this to continue. But he knew, for once, that all of that would just prove to Asher that Ray really was a selfish jerk.

"I hate falling asleep and waking up without you," he said after a stretch of silence. It was the most honest thing he'd spoken in days but he couldn't leave it there without making Asher realize he'd learned.

"But I know that's down to me. And more importantly, I uh, understand what I did and why it's my fault."